Handmade candles, made recycling wax leftovers from my altar and food jars.
I have a very witchy week ahead. Though usually my Tarot consultants only want to know about everyday things, last Friday I got an order for a trabajo- that is, a complex spell that will need an amulet, bath herbs, magically charged candles and such. That will keep me busy for sure!
To be honest, it’s my favourite kind of witch job. Reading Tarot is fun, but after 19 years you can imagine the thrill is almost gone, mostly when everyone have more or less the same questions and worries – love, job, family. I agree, there’s nothing more important, but with time it gets repetitive just as any other job.
But trabajos are never boring, as there are not two alike. Every person is a world within him/herself and my spirit guides sent me always through different directions and tools for every person, which means a lot of work as everything must be made from scratch, but the trip through healing is always an amazing experience.
I don’t make trabajos when people ask me, I make them when I consider they have to be made. Making them by order would be as stupid as if the doctor let the patient decide if they need an operation or not. 9 out of 10 times, the commands people have for spell works are absurd and born from negative feelings. You wouldn’t believe how many times I’ve been asked to make damaging spell work to another person, or to separate or bind a couple without their consent. I am very strict in what comes to this, and once I even left a very profitable job at an occult shop because the owner was selling magical products to someone who said that wanted to bury someone else. In case you were wondering – yes, it is possible to end a life with magic.
So, when a consultant asks for spellwork, I ask the Orishas, using different oracles, but mainly the buzio (cowrie shell) oracle, which I’m not allowed to use in public (Eleggua’s commands) and that I only use as my last choice because it needs a very special environment and state of mind. If the Orishas say yes, I go ahead, but if they say no, there’s nothing more to ask.
It also happens that the Orishas tell me that someone needs spellwork before they even ask, as has been the case this time. It’s long and complex to explain, but there are many signs that come up along a consultation that show me that need – it can be in the reading, or sometimes the “companion spirits” that everyone brings with them just show up and tell me, or they come to me later when I’m doing my meditation and tell me what they want. Sometimes simply I just feel what I call “the black aura”, which usually means that someone has made a conjure work against my consultant.
Though this time I did not have to convince my consultant, sometimes I have to deal with people’s scepticism; for some strange reason, many people believe in Tarot readings, but less and less people believe in Witchcraft. I don’t think it is a matter of belief – sadly, the truth is that there are so many fakes in this business that people are always afraid that you want to take money from them.
Money. That is ALWAYS the problem! People spend fortunes on useless things like make-up, clothes, flat tv’s and such, but they do not want to pay for having a good spiritual life. Not that I care! If they don’t want to pay, that’s their problem, not mine. And, to be honest, they always come back and pay when the problem they have becomes desperate.
I’ve read a lot about witches feeling guilty for being paid. I don’t have that problem. I have been studying this all my life and I know very well what my worth is. I do a lot of work for free – actually, this week’s spellwork is free of charge. As with spellwork, I let the Orishas decide. If they don’t want me to get paid, 10 out of 10 times my consultant will give me back something bigger in return, when its time comes, so I don’t feel bad about working for free. When the Orishas say “get paid”, I set a fee that I’m comfortable with and that’s all. What people do not understand is the amount of work AND preparation that making good spellwork needs, and the constant work that a Witch has to do to keep her channels working properly. But again, that’s their ignorance, not mine.
I am not complaining! Actually, being so strict about respecting myself have only brought me good clients, that appreciate me and my work, and that never question my requirements. I am sure that when Witches complain that they don’t get good clients, they’re disrespecting themselves and their work in some way or another, and thus bringing bad energies around them.
Also, simply they feel guilty because they know they are not ready to be “out” and working – again they bring bad consultants to them and have to bargain for every penny they get paid. Why do I know that? Because, as every Witch, I was too young and unexperienced when I started working. Maybe I could see this more clearly because I was doing it to help my family, which was completely broke, and not because of my own vanity or desire to impersonate a Witch that I was not (not yet). I worked for “the will”, which is how we say it in Spanish when people pay you what they want, and was humiliated many times by abusive people that paid me next to nothing. I once get paid 50 pesetas – that is like half a dollar. That was about 12 years ago. I was 20, and I had alread been reading Tarot for 7 years.
There came a time when reading Tarot seemed more like serving a sentence than like a gift, so I “retired” and studied like a madwoman…and practised, practised and practised even more. And then studied more. A few years later Santeria found me, and everything that I had studied started to fall into place and good consultants started to call me, people who wanted my guidance in a regular schedule and that -may Eleggua bless them – helped me pay expired bills many times.
I do not see it like a closed cycle. I learn everyday, and study as much as time permits. Being 32 is quite a young age for a Witch really. The last ten years, since I found my husband, have been much easier because of his support and belief in my work, both as a Witch and an artist. The road has no finish line; it is a life.
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